okay, i changed my mind.. i decided to spend time here also. it isn't fair, to let all my attention just go to tumblr.. so, dear blog, forgive me.

also, i'm going to be changing the name of this. cheikhisprettylavish is too.. superfluous. i don't know what to yet, but i'll find something. so bear with me.

so yes. this blog will be more personal, more to my own.. while my tumblr will branch off to more random postings/rebloggings/blahblahblah.

but anyway, that's enough for now. i'll just end this with a goodbye, and thank you.. chao.

gone ..

but not forgotten.

it's crazy, actually;
i made a tumblr, and have been spending
almost all my freaking time
on it..
instead of here.

i'll make sure to update this more,
but my attention will probably be focused
here
most of the time.

love, peace and hurr grease.

signed,
           cheikh a.

for you ...

& it turns out,
after all these years ...

that she still is,
in fact,
the momma of neo-soul.

b l i n d . m e .

just be HAPIE ..

maybe i question myself too much ...

maybe if she were still here,

half the frustrations i deal with

wouldn't bother me like they do.

maybe i could run home after school,

and hug her vehemently;

maybe she'd whisper the stuff of dreams:

"baby, life ain't nothing but trouble;

so there's no since in letting it 

upset you so much.

if you can't change it,

live and let god."

maybe ... i would feel better;

like there wasn't a trial that i couldn't pass.

maybe she left,

to teach me to love more;

maybe she was taken,

involuntarily.

maybe i should call out her name,

and passively wait for a 

response back.

maybe ... she's listening to me.

maybe, perhaps, possibly ... 

she's invisible,

silently being.

maybe she still thinks about us;

down here, 

waiting for her kiss and loving touch

again.

maybe this is a bit long-winded;

but maybe she'd read this and 

encourage me

to keep it going,

like she always did.

maybe her love still shines;

maybe she left it behind

so we'd never feel alone.

i think that maybe, i ... 

                                 i, just really need this break.